The Modern Day Caveman

Day 6 rolled around and with it, the first Monday of my 365 day challenge.

Despite a decent sleep the night before, I actually felt more tired than I had the previous day when I was nursing a hangover. This tiredness crept into my work and I felt wholly unproductive throughout the morning.

Thankfully, this tiredness seemed to pass by lunchtime and I was a little more productive, getting through a fair bit of work and going to the post office to post a bag full of items I’d sold on eBay the previous day.

As I’ve mentioned previously, the vast majority of my debt has come from my compulsive spending disorder, so on a positive note, I do have some physical assets to sell, albeit not quite worth the crazy amounts of money I’ve spent.

A lot of this stuff is already listed on eBay and has been for a while, but I decided to list a fair few things as auctions to try and get them shifted. It worked for some, and I ended up selling 13 items! I should have the funds for these tomorrow, so check back tomorrow to see how much I made!

In further good news, I stepped on the scales for the first time in a few weeks and I weighed in at 105.4kg, a 1.8kg loss on the last time I weighed myself 3 weeks ago! This brings my BMI down to 29.8, down from 30.3, technically now classing me just as overweight and not ‘obese’.

In all honesty, there’s not a specific weight or numerical target I’m aiming for, my end goal is just to feel happy and confident in my own skin. Hopefully this consistent exercise and healthy eating can help get me there in the weeks and months to come – although my diet could still do with some improvement, if the past few days are anything to go by!

The biggest positive of the day, though, was finally fixing something I messed up back on Day 2. If you remember, that was a rough mental health day, and in a moment of stupidity, I ended up bidding £501 on an item on eBay.

It was one of those impulsive decisions – a mix of timing, seeing the notification pop up, and convincing myself I’d found a bargain because the item was worth almost double. Deep down, I knew it was just another excuse. I was fully aware of what I was doing.

Anyway, I actually won the auction, and the item had been sitting in my basket for the last four days, waiting for me to check out. Today, I made the decision to cancel the order and message the seller to explain I wouldn’t be completing the purchase.

It’s a small win, but a meaningful one. I know I made the right decision for myself and my future, even if there’s still a bit of guilt about having ended up in that position in the first place.

Metrics

• Steps: 9,063 (Phone tracked)
• Garmin Stress Score: 28 (Skewed – not enough time measured)
• Mental Health Rating: 7/10
• Remaining Debt: £42,466.88 (-£63 down on yesterday)

Food Log

• Breakfast: Weetabix, milk, orange juice
• Lunch: Plant-based chicken baguette, crisps
• Dinner: Quorn curry,  rice, poppadoms
• Snacks: Banana, kiwi, graze flapjack, popcorn

Another page written, another step in the right direction. It won’t all be smooth sailing, but today I made choices that moved me forward instead of back.